Oh yeah. I hate this. This...thing. This trust thing. I tried to trust. I tried to make myself trust. Through a year, I endeavored to force myself to learn trust. I kept giving my love back to God. And it hurt. And I cried. And etc. There are times God teaches you something. And there are times when God prepares to teach you something. Last year, He was preparing me to learn to trust, but I wasn't ready. This year, I started pursuing surrender. I wanted to know what it really meant to surrender your love to God, because I was at my wits end. Sorta. I kept finding ways out. Spending days thinking through it, thinking I'd found another resting spot, another course forward. Then there came a time where I was at my wits end. Totally. Nearly a month ago, now, surprisingly. I was...numb. Dead. In tears a lot. Completely. Dried. Up. I was advised a course of action over a three month period, and I prayed - and took it. I'm not going into too much detail at this p...
Praying God will reveal to you what is to heal the ache and what those mysterious words and music are.
ReplyDeleteAs to writing...I've had similar (in a lesser way) frustration, where I want to write, I sit down to write and then the words won't come or they come so slowly I give up. I have so many ideas in my head and longings to write something meaningful, but it doesn't want to flow. For me, what's finally helped is realizing I'm not going to write the perfect book on the rough draft. I told myself "No one is going to see this, just write it". And that has helped SO much. Because otherwise I get caught up in "What will people think?" "Too many adverbs!" or "This is horrible dialogue!" and I have to start at square one and tell the bare bones story. And Lord willing, the clearer plot, the snappy dialogue, the details, and the deeper meaning will all come in time.
Long explanation. :P Don't know if that helped or not...
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Queen Jane!! You have a blog!!! <3
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